breakdown-OUCH!

I've been carrying heavy emotions in my heart this past few days. I don't understand where I stand. I thought I got a clear picture...that I was needed and wanted. But I get a feeling I'm just but another person... who will eventually be the "outcast". What have I done to feel this way? I'm hurt. I think it's better to get mad than to get hurt. Because when you're hurt, it's really painful. When you're angry, it's just temporary or it will die down... But when you're hurt - it cuts your heart. Though being angry can lead you to getting hurt by carrying grudges.. But sometimes it's unbearable when you get hurt right away without getting mad first. :,c

bye!

i have been rethinking of blogging somewhere....so, buhbye.....

grrrr!!!!

and they asked me to do it and someone said unnecessary things! i wish i can elaborate!
they assigned me to do something.
i never claimed to be good at it!
but i did it anyway coz nobody else will.
Now it's done, i'm kinda like receiving a blame...
"look what you did"
This is the reason why I don't volunteer to do anything coz of unappreciative comments that I get!
So I'd rather nod and agree than being tasked to do something...
I'm okay with tasks...
It hurts when I get "look what you did" statements!

blog title

any suggestions?
drop them off at the comments
thanks

floody CDO

It's been raining since yesterday. I was on my way to school and I've noticed students flock themselves outside their school. At the back of my mind, I was thinking they were being sent home. Then I got an SMS from my fellow teacher telling me that there's no class today. There's no way but to go back. Good thing that I got a ride from Gboy, my twin. Traffic was horrible on the way back so we took a different route.
I have never been in a flood before nor I would wish to experience it. I have seen a lot from the news and it's not a funny experience.
I'm not good with locations so I cannot label the pics with the location.
Here's where I went:
I was on my way to school at La Buena
Passing through West City Central School
I was at SM when I got that SMS
We took the route going to the Landfill
We pass through Country Village (high levels of flood outside)
Traffic
Went to Patag
Kauswagan
Velez
Then I was dropped off at a bank.
I went home by myself
and here I am now making a blog

Here I go again

So I created another blog coz apparently my original blog
http://aehraiza.blogspot.com disappeared!!
I started blogging 2004 and my first entry was documented on 2003 --I was 19 years old (Okay, stop counting!).
I'm back because my mind is boggling me again and I have to put them into writing. I have been hallucinating words coming out from my brain. They have to go somewhere and this is the place where they should go.
I don't know what happened to my old blog. Good thing I have a backup... I posted almost same contents at http://aehraiza.easyjournal.com. You may take a peek on my past.
Past is past.
Anyway, I would like to try wordpress but I haven't learned the skill to do it and I can't help it anymore. I need to write! I have to.. Coz I love to and blogspot is the easiest way to keep a blog. I hope they won't make this disappear again!
Ok?
So, get ready to get bored