breakdown-OUCH!

I've been carrying heavy emotions in my heart this past few days. I don't understand where I stand. I thought I got a clear picture...that I was needed and wanted. But I get a feeling I'm just but another person... who will eventually be the "outcast". What have I done to feel this way? I'm hurt. I think it's better to get mad than to get hurt. Because when you're hurt, it's really painful. When you're angry, it's just temporary or it will die down... But when you're hurt - it cuts your heart. Though being angry can lead you to getting hurt by carrying grudges.. But sometimes it's unbearable when you get hurt right away without getting mad first. :,c